Welcome once again people read my blog and felt that the last story was some sort of fairy tale and what I was presenting to them was not real. After having a good thought over it I came to conclusion that it might appear fairy tale but it was quiet true. This brings me to a point that what you think and what happens can be different. Its close to one year to Pal’s death and I was under the impression he died on the spot, but the truth came out later when Nadia told me the truth. So this one goes to the realities that exist, after reading this you would not have complaints that life is a fairy tale, if it is a fairy tale it could be a bed of thorns. So lets go back a bit in time on 16^th December. As told in previous blog that day they had a fight with each other over a very small thing but the problems with lovers is if they fight they try to appease their partner and the next day after coming from work Pal was trying to make his gal happy by doing all the good things she might like. He called Nadia and asked if she is still angry, to which Nadia responded (in a mix tone of anger and love) Yes I am and you know why it is.

Pal: Please dear You know I cant see you angry

Nadia: So, what?? Thats none of my problem !! (gals can always be rude…poor guys)

Pal: Dear you know if there is anything in life I would ever want it would be to be with you.

Nadia: That does not impress me!! (gals have a bad habit of pretending and giving opposite responses)

Pal: Ok dear this one is for you

Life in my eyes is just because of you   

It would be pleasure if it closes for you

Take my heart it beats for you

But don’t take my eyes it has a habit of seeing you

My words might sound crazy

But thats the only truth, I know you love me

And my love is and will always be true for you….

(this is one thing that Pal could do very well say lines in rhyming fashion and trust me it works everytime gals like it a lot)

Nadia: When you know so much don’t you know what I want?

Pal: I am coming lets go for a bike ride… and thats what you want am I wrong?

Nadia: You know the best, love you dear!!

Pal: Hai…Would faint…okkie coming down in 30 mins get ready quickly.

Nadia: Always ready.

In next half an hour Pal was right at Nadia’s doorstep with bunch of flowers, Nadia loved it and they were about to catch the highway to get some fresh air and enjoy a nice bike ride.

Just when they were about to start Pal who always wore his helmet removed it and put in on Nadia’s head with a smile and said: “ Honey keep your hairs safe, I really love them and love the way they fly when we drive.

They hit the road and in 15 mins they were crossing sector 15 and about to hit the highway, and suddenly they felt a blow and Nadia went flying in the air before she could realise anything else she was hit badly on back and head, she was going skidding on road. The only thing he could see was Pal being hit by range rover and smashing in glass and falling from the vehicle, the driver of the vehicle was so scared that he ran after the accident with the vehicle. Pal was bleeding and suffered major injury on face, hand and chest.

He was shaky and was bleeding from everywhere, he came next to Nadia asked if she is fine? The only thing Nadia could say in that situation was “Just be with me”

Pal asked for help but it was late, he tried to see if something could be done to bike but it was in bad shape, the headlight and the wiser was gone and handle was shaky, he somehow picked the bike again and brought it near the place where Nadia fell. He then made Nadia to sit on bike and he was driving to nearest hospital that he knew. The good thing that he did to Nadia was he tied his jacket from Nadia’s back to his. Thus preventing any chance of Nadia falling from bike. In few minutes he was in nearby hospital, drenched in blood he somehow managed to reach hospital. By the time he reached hospital he was fainting and the blood was dripping the only thing he could say to receptionist was Please save the gal, she is in great pain. Doctors were scared to take the case as because they were not sure what has happened. As no one was helping Nadia who was in deep pain and was hardly able to breathe which made Pal angry he yelled its an accident would someone please help, some bloody driver crushed us and flew. After this one brave doctor came up and handled the situation. A humble request to all the readers if you see a person who met with an accident please don’t hesitate to help them, your help can save someone’s life.

By the time Pal got treatment he lost too much blood and we was counting his last breathe and all he wanted to know was that “Is Nadia fine?” He lost his conscious and due to excess blood loss and it took another 6 weeks for Nadia to recover fully and next day when Nadia woke up she got the news that the person who brought him here lost his life. Pal lost his life and true to his words all he wanted to see Nadia fine.

Nadia’s new year was not like a normal new year and it took great pain and suffering to come out of setback and shattered dreams. Today when Nadia called me and told this she was not upset at Pal’s death but she was upset because not only her family but Pal’s family wanted her to marry. To which her reply was “I got married long back and my love lives in my heart. Pal had some dreams he was a man of words and he was a man of words, he had few dreams he knew where he wanted to be in future. He knew the future and no matter where he is today he would love to see that future. He would love to see me taking responsibility of family, make others smile and create a bond between families that would be unbreakable. He would love to see his family members driving a luxary car and live life as if it ends tomorrow. So tell me dear how can I let his dream down. How can I give up on life when he taught me how to live??”

I know life is full of suffering and pain but does that prevent you and me from looking at the brighter side. He lived, he felt and he made things happen, he taught how to live life. So how can I give up on life that he gave me?

I was spellbound by what she said and it just made me think that life is not just about gain or lose, its about living and more so love is not just about being together its also about living together no matter what separates you. Kudos to Nadia and Pal.

To sum it up : “You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.” 
                                                                                                                           ― Mae West

After my appeal to PM it seems PM again acted in silent manner, but with petrol price reduced marginally it hardly makes a difference. So my only appeal to my readers is if you cant find happiness in real world than create a world around you that can keep you happy. What I say might not be possible all the time, its tough many times and I do understand. Had a talk with Nadia few days back and she is still in a setback. The only thing she said was Pallav its better to make every moment the moment of your life rather than waiting for time of your life. She then told few more things, which really moved me and made me write this blog. So here is another Pal story for you all.

It was an evening in November when Pal came frustrated from office he was annoyed and he knew Nadia would be at room and would wait for her, as it was a Saturday night and on Saturday night they use to forget all tensions and go out have a nice time with a good dinner and a nice bike ride. But this was not happening this Saturday, Nadia was a bit worried and kept enquiring what is the matter? To which Pal said I need to go to Cochin to meet dealers and resolve a burning issue in car and would not be here for next 3 days and my flight is tonight. Nadia knew as Pal is not in a good mood it would not be wise to talk much so she did not bothered him and helped Pal packing his stuff while packing she got the chance to see Pal’s ticket and flight details. She quickly packed Pal’s stuff and said she would now go to her room and meet him at airport to see him off. To which Pal did not bothered to respond. Nadia rushed to room and immediately booked a ticket in same flight and rushed in to pack her stuff. The only thing Nadia knew was that if Pal goes in same mood he would definitely not do any good to himself as well as to his work. So she packed her stuff and dropped a leave request in office and rushed to airport. Mind you last time when Pal travelled in such situations he made a terrible mess of situation and he was almost on the verge of demotion. So this time Nadia thought to be around Pal and not to let him make any silly mistake which could cost him job. So she stood by Pal and took this step.

When Pal reached the airport he was surprised to see Nadia with luggage, he asked whats the matter? Where are you going? To which Nadia replied, with you… won’t let you make same mistake as you made last time.

They landed in Cochin around late night, Pal had booked a taxi and it took them to hotel, Nadia was half asleep and she didn’t knew where they were heading and by the time she reached hotel she was asleep, she could not recollect much of what happened in between. It was 6:00 in the morning when she got a call (Calling… Ulta LAP) she was surprised that why he called so early in the morning, she got a bit tensed. She picked the call and in half asleep mode and lazy voice but with lots of worry said “ Hello Pal, something wrong?”

Pal: Please open the door, I am outside.
Nadia: So early..ookkkiie okkie just give me a sec.

She rushed to door and opened it, she was surprised to see, what he saw outside the door. Pal was in waiter’s dress with a big bouquet in hand and with morning breakfast. Nadia completely in the state of shock and having no clue of what is going on said (What the hell is this Pal?)

Pal: Get ready madam we have lots of work to do and please do open the window curtain else you will miss the moment, which off course i would not let you do. When Nadia open the curtain she was even more amazed to see sand, sea, and horizon half dark and half pink. Pal said madam if you can get ready soon we have a morning walk in the schedule. Nadia completely clueless and amazed by the surprise could not respond, she just followed the instruction like a robot.

They made it to the beach in the morning and it was quiet cold but they walked bare feet leaving their mark on the sand towards the water, the morning waves and the rising sun with nice cool breeze just changed the state of mind in which Nadia was, she was still wondering is she dreaming or is it real. She pinched pal to which pal said “ Dear you are in real world I am right in front of you.”

Nadia: So when does your work start?
Pal: Well Its going on and it will go on don’t worry for it, just give your hand in my hand and walk with me for this moment keep all the worries aside I don’t need anything else right now I just need you this place, this moment and this weather. They kept walking along the beech for another hour talking about the beauty of place and how they had good times in the past and how they use to see each other in office. They came back to room had a nice breakfast and then Pal said “ OMG, I forgot I need to rush to another place now, would you come along with me, what will you do here sitting?”

Nadia: Is it official work, what will I do? More so I will get even more bored!

Pal: Dont worry honey, you will not get bored thats my promise, just trust me.

So they left the hotel and went to another end of city and they ended up at some place which was written in malyalam, honestly Nadia had no clue of what it was but it definitely look exotic and she was not sure whether it was a dealer center or some suppliers workplace or some auditor’s office. By the time they entered the cabin things were pretty much clear to Nadia that it was not an office of any of the above infact it was a traditional massage centre where they give you body treatments with various oils. Nadia’s eye went large and by now she knew that it was not official trip, it was Pal’s way of doing thing. It was exactly the way Nadia described an ideal day to Pal few days back. She was so happy and her eyes lit up. So for next 3 hrs they were at this place and by the time they came back and sat in car, Nadia found a gift box for her. She knew the day is going to be full of surprises but this much… she didn’t expected it. She opened the box in a hurry just like a 5 yr old kid opening his birthday presents. She was surprised to see reddish gown with a pearl set in the gift box. Pal was silently looking at Nadia and was smiling at the looks that Nadia made after opening the present.

Nadia by now got angry, trust me guys, gals have every reason to get angry no matter how good you do to them, they can get angry over anything. So when they get angry they ask the most silly question and Nadia did exactly the same, Pal, why didn’t you tell me that you were upto this? Couldnt you tell me that you were up for a surprise trip which resembles my dream?”

So as I said gals ask silly question now if a guy tells that he is planning a surprise trip for her on her face then whats the element of surprise in that trip!! To which Pal said in the most polite manner “ Honey I always wanted to tell you many things but I don’t have the courage to tell, just accept this as one of my weakness or my bad habit. Nadia hugged Pal and said I love this bad habit. Nadia knew by this time what was coming next, but if guessing was so simple then it would not have been surprise. According to Nadia’s script they should be heading for lunch by now. So it was but that didn’t happen they were heading towards backwater’s and they were into a boat, enjoying the sun, the trees and the greenry around all of sudden Nadia saw a second boat coming and she thought another couple was in the boat, but when the boat came closer to their it had a nice lunch table and Pal escorted her to the boat. They had a nice lunch and after the lunch they were near the coast, they walk through the walk way and ended up on a wooden house Nadia still wondering what was coming next, to her surprise the wooden house was a place from where you can see beautiful birds and elephants, the squirrels use to come around and you could see baby elephants doing all sorts of tricks. They took lots of photographs and after couple of hours, they then decided to make a move, Nadia knew that the evening would be even more exotic than the morning but she expected it on hill station, and she asked Pal, I know we would be heading to a hill station but how? Pal said just see… The Malabar coast as exotic and as beautiful had equally good hills, so they went in car and they ended up on a road, from there Pal took Nadia by hand and said we need to reach the hill top. Nadia said are you crazy, its so high how can we? Pal again in the most polite tone: Dont worry dear I am around, just relax. The walk was not easy by the half way mark Nadia gave up and Pal knew that she would not make it up to the top, so he said hold this scarf and let me pull you up, just walk behind me holding this scarf. She walked a bit more but gave up few 100 mts before the apex, Pal then lifted Nadia and made his way forward, the clouds and the wind on the hill top with sea and the sun set, was an exotic view. There is noting that could describe that moment. She asked Pal: Dear tell me one thing, when did you plan all this?

Pal: The day you told me about your dream day.
Nadia: How did you know that I would come along with you on this trip?
Pal: Dear you said last time when such situation arise and i screwed up you said dear no matter what ever happens I would be there next time with you to keep you calm. So I knew it if I act the same way you will come along with me thinking that you will give me a surprise so I kept the return gift as this trip.
Nadia: You really are crazy Pal.
Pal: Still you like this crazy person…!!

It was sunset and both of them smiled looking at each other and hugged each other. They came down and they made their way back to hotel. By the time she reached back to hotel she saw another gift on the bed, Nadia had tears in her eyes, Pal asked guess whats it? Nadia said this was not in my script Pal, my day ended with sunset now whats it?? Pal said go see it. Nadia opened it to find herself an I-phone 4 in it. She went crazy and shouted at Pal, Pal what was the use to buy this?? You have gone mad and if you keep spending like this you would go bankrupt soon.

Pal said: Dear Do you remember the master card advert? For me nothing is more valuable and priceless than your smile and your childish look and for this scolding that you make after getting such gift I can go bankrupt a million times, as long as you are earning (Smart answer by Pal, I must say… no doubt he was smart )

Nadia was so happy that she could not resist laughing aloud and hugging Pal. Pal said I am hungry lets go for dinner now. Nadia said Pal no more surprises please else I would die in shock, you already have given me alot of surprises today. Pal smiled and said get ready we meet in 10 mins and please wear the gown that I got for you would love to see you in that dress. After 10 mins Pal could not believe his eyes Nadia was looking beautiful and he could not believe his eyes. He extended his hand and asked may I have the opportunity to escort the princess please. They went down and everyone crossing path with Pal and Nadia were staring at the pair. Nadia knew that the couples looking at them were feeling jealous, she could feel how lucky she is!! But to her surprise Pal escorted her to beach after some distance she could see a tent, The dinner was on beech side and a candle light dinner. Pal made the lady sit first held her hand and said Nadia you are the best gift life has given to me, Please be there with me always never leave me ever. By then Nadia busted in tears and said Pal enough is enough no more surprises else I would die here. I am there with you always and ever. I am not going anywhere.

Next few days were spent in Periyar national park and at Munnar. Nadia always cherished this trip not because it was full of surprises but because Pal made those moment special in every possible way. She cherished the way how Pal knew to make life larger in every sense.

I am surprised to see a guy who was so shy and never knew how to behave in front of gals behaving so maturely, its rightly said MAGIC OF LOVE CAN CHANGE ANY MAN.

Salute to NADIA and PAL and their true love….and a humble request to all please don’t waste time in waiting for special moment to come make every moment the time of your life.

Hope you liked it do give your response….

I know you have received many letters and mails from people, I know you are really busy and people around you are just killing you, be it people opposing you like Anna or be it people supporting you Mr Pranab Mukherjee. It has been a nightmare for you as a second turn of ruling the country. Everyone said you are not apt and you are not a strong PM, on contrary I would really like to appreciate you for not commenting anything to such critiques. Where people like Advani, modi, kapil sibbal and the person who thinks he could win Soniyaji’s heart by blabbering whatever comes in his mind DIGVIJAY SINGH, well leave apart politicians (they are meant to be outspoken) even saadhu’s (Baba Ramdev), actors (Amir khan) came and said whatever came in their mind. But you being a wise man kept your mouth shut and never bothered to respond to them. This is a real good habit of yours but as we all know excess of anything is bad, your silence on lot of issues has hurt me and I really felt that I should write to you and let you know that you have done a great job but there are some answers that I need and no one else can answer it better than you.

To begin with I must congratulate you for being the only second PM to rule the country for 2 terms ( I pray the country does not go for mid term polls in next 2 years) It requires extra ordinary skills and great patience to be a winner of heart of a nation of 120 crore people out of which roughly 55% vote. But pls Mr PM give me a chance to raise a question, was this possible because of a weak opposition and lack of issues which opposition did not dealt effectively. Well what BJP did in last 6 years same thing is now coming back to you, your party is doing the same mistake in last 7 months. You saw the strength of democracy where all parties had to agree to bring a strong janlokpal bill. Now I am not an analyst I am just a common Indian man who is not so common these days. My question to you is if you can work silently why cant people in your party and cabinet do so, why are they continuously creating trouble for you and your party. You have been a good PM and I would like to see you for the third time too, please do not think that I am a congress supporter, I am a fan of yours and I am getting annoyed day by day with people around you who are making your life tough.

Talking about corruption well I really feel pity for you, multi million and billion Rupees taken away by ministers and yet you maintaining a clean image and claiming that you did not take a single penny, does that really matter sir? Do you think honesty is the word in dictionary of politicians these days? I have lost faith in people who called themselves politicians and debate over democracy being superior than people or constitution being superior to people. Is this debate necessary when your policy maker define the line of poverty as person earning less than Rs 36 a day… Pardon me sir if poverty line is defined in such a way then a begger on streets is also above poverty line. Well in that case our nation is a nation with almost 0 people below poverty line.

If I don’t get this wrong your team has really worked according to the agenda set by UPA government, let me bring out the main agenda that your government fought elections last 2 times.

1. To remove Poverty and help poor: Well you get 100% on this front, your government has been able to remove poverty by defining a new standard for poverty. But Sir I would like to ask you to come to a normal town, or any non metro city, please come and be with an Uncommon Indian like me and let me know how can a person survive on 37Rs a day? Let me bring some statistics to you (let me tell you all these are floor price meaning least price in town) Cucumber: Rs 20/kg, Wheat floor Rs 30/kg, milk 35/lit… more available but do you really think can a person eat twice a day and live in the worst possible condition at anything above Rs 36…?? But according to statistics that your government will generate it would be clear that your government has been able to reduce the poverty. Sir, you an economist, please do justice if not speak on this matter
2. To Remove the difference between rich and poor: Again Kudos to you sir, you have made everyone rich so the difference between rich and poor is gone. The situation gets further enhanced when people like us, the uncommon middle class Indian can dream of mobile phones, cars but when it comes to eating and nutritious food we had to go to cheap stores and by not so good groceries, food which is sub standard. If I tell this to minister in your cabinet they might give me an argument that India is a nation with maximum diabetic patients or wheat is not the only floor that you should have you must experiment with other grains. On the other hand I would not accept your silence on this topic. I had a chance to be in UK for few months and We get milk at same rate, sugar at same rate, apple at same rate but the quality there and quality here in India is miles apart, when you say you need engineers and managers to drive the nation! Do you forget that those budding engineers and managers and people who run the nation need nutrition why do we not get the same quality as what people outside our nation get? But your records will show that as the common Indian has grown richer its his responsibility to stay fit and get nutritious food, for this you would spend again multi million to spread awareness on nutrition value of diet.
3. Your agenda also said that You would save money for common man: As I said the common Indian man has become Uncommon Indian because they are on streets and on social networking sites supporting a notion of “India against Corruption” which means the only common man remaining is either you who is an honest politician or your team members who are not so honest politicians, I can very well say that your team members have saved a lot by indulging in scamps and as far as you are concerned you also have saved a lot, by doubling your salary. So see you have fulfilled all the promise you made to people.

You made it big on all three agenda that you set, meaning 100% progress of your government if you show this to Sonia ji she would be happy and instead of Rahul she would support you for next election also. Sir please do not consider this as any sort of pessimistic tone or anti-government publicity, its just the reality and I thought I should bring it to your notice that your team has done a fabulous job. Also one more thing request please do not increase the number on IIT and IIM. Well people argue that it would dilute the reputation that these colleges carry. Very wrong noting would happen to their reputation the only trouble could be for you and your fellow team mates , as you might see many more Arvind Kejrival coming out of such institution to bring revolution in mind set of Uncommon Indians.

Politics is a quick sand even Mr Arvind fell in that trap but we uncommon Indian who keep following cricket no matter we win or loose cannot become trouble for you as because we do not have choices, on one hand we have a silent king and on the other hand we have a team of 100 PM’s so please carry on the good work and maintain silence as you have done in past but please break your silence for your team members who are exactly opposite to you, ask them to follow you after all thats a sign of good leader and I believe that you are a good leader its just that you haven’t brought it out to the surface. I would really like to see you for the third term and would egerly wait for your election agenda for this election. With warm wishes

Regards
Pal

Dear all

In my last blog I told you my story because lots of people raised a lot of questions, I had no answers to them then to give them answer in my lines. So here is another Pal story , should I say Pal story or an account… you people decide and tell me. People asked me so many questions the only answer to their question is “ All the character in this story are imaginary any resemblance with anyone would just be mere coincidence.” Well life is wonderful and we all know that but so many times we take life for granted, this account is just a reflection of how taking life for granted and making assumptions about life can be dangerous. This is an account of Pal on 16th December night. Last night of Pal, that day he had a bad time in office and when he came back in the evening to see Nadia she was asleep, so he decided not to wake up Nadia and just make some tea for himself, but when you are out of your mind something wrong happens and it did. Pal dropped the cup and Nadia woke up, Nadia just lost a cup which was gifted to her by her mother, she had every reason to get angry on Pal, and she did. Pal already had a bad day and he got annoyed and yelled at Nadia and left.

It was night time 11:00 P.M. Pal had a good habit of writing an entry in diary. So here is what he wrote in his diary.

Date 16th December 2010

Dear Nadia,

I know I not just broke your cup but broke your heart, I know I am a dumb head, I know I could have reacted in a different way, I know I could have said something good that time, but I really had a bad day, I know you enjoyed your comp off but as you were sleeping I didn’t wanted to disturb you but just prepare a nice tea for you and wake you up with the smell of tea so that you could feel better and then we could go for a bike ride. I love to take you for a ride, not because I love you because I love your hairs when they fly, I feel like the breeze feels delighted and tries to play with your hair and make me feel jealous as because those hairs fly opposite to me and that breeze tries to tease me and tell me that you are not so lucky. But how can I tell that breeze that I cannot tell how much lucky I am, how great my life is with you, how good I feel when you sit next to me on my bike. Well I just wana tell that breeze that those hairs are beautiful and I give you a chance to play with them. Trust me whatever I said was my anger and I know I am very bad at anger management, you also know this. My only intention was to break your sleep with a great tea that could make you say I LOVE YOU. Ah let me tell you I don’t know weather I would have courage to say this to you ever or not, but you look great when you sleep. While you were sleeping I wish it would be dawn time and we were in a boat, I would sail the boat so that when the first ray of morning comes and falls on you, I could show them that there is something more beautiful than them. I love the glims and the twinkles in your eyes, I wish that we were laying on grass in open sky and show stars that you don’t need to be so proud of your twinkling; I already have my star with me who can twinkle much brighter than you and your beauty is nothing in front of those eyes. I saw you smiling in your dreams I don’t know but it came to my mind that I was in your dreams, I really wish I could make you smile always not just in dreams but in real life also. Your smile is something that makes my day, it s like a bright sunny day in a cold winter season. The warmth of sun would not match the smile on your face. I wish I could tell the sun that your brightness is nothing in comparison to those smile, your glow can never match my love’s face, her smile makes my day. When I close my eyes I could see your face right in front of me. I wish I could tell you what it means to me, I could tell those flowers that there is something more delicate and more joyce than them. Something more beautiful than those flowers. Your pink cheeks would make the rose shy away.

Suddenly the phone rings… DIL (NA) Dia calling…

I wish I could finish this story, I wish I could tell you how much I love you, I really wish you always be right next to me smiling talking and spreading your glow. You make this fool a genius. I wish I could tell you how much I want to hold your hand and walk with you on sandy beeches , how much I wish to take a walk with you along the river side. I wish I could explain everything to you but now as you have given a call I will finish this story later. I know you will start the call with sorry but I would like to say sorry because you can never be wrong its me who is stupid… Lets talk dear, I have lot to write would write tomorrow lot more to tell you…I wish one day you read this diary and feel my love….For now time to talk to you…

On 26th December when Nadia read this last page of diary the only thing that she could do is cry, a drop of tear fell on that page, I think that was the perfect ending to the unfinished story that Pal wanted to finish. No end could be better than this end. If life is a story not every story would be complete but its important to remember that every moment you live you make a story out of it and love life, live life, thats life.

The night was lovely and the wind was cool
the shadow of mine layout with me without any rule
the joy was with me and so was the pain
I was in the heaven and I saw the hell
The soul of mine was free from all tales
The brightness was in front and darkness behind
The love of my life who was the rhythm divine
Through to my soul and gave me the best of time
Gone were the days when I was dumped and I was sad
Today is mine no matter its still month eight
There comes a time when life change, after sunshine it rains
Loved your tears and more loved your smiles
The heart still beats and sings the same rhythem divine
The touch of your hand to close my eyes
The voice of yours so lovely and so fine
Gone are the days and gone are the memoirs
The only things remains is just a story of mine
I stand before the dawn in the hope of sunshine
But all could feel was the fog of mystery and glimmer of hope
Then came the fairy with the touch of light
With a look in her eyes and a faith in soul of mine
Gone were the mists and road lay ahead
No more melancholy strings its my new rhythm divine
Thats the story so far this is all mine ..this is all mine

Pal took a deep breath and said lets get out of this place and go to Rockfort, for people who do not know what is rockfort here is the link (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rockfort) Throughout the climb to the hill top both of them didn’t talk at all ( Pal was thinking of what to do and what not to do, and jamina was confused and lost in her own thoughts), Pal asked jamina to sit on the rock while pal went into the temple. Pal standing infront of lord said, lord guide me and let me do what I have not done so far. He took a deep breath and went out and sat with Jamina. From the hill top you can view the whole city, the train going through the bridge, the market, the other big Sriangam temple, the church on the other side, the busy city and cool breeze coming from not so watery Kaveri river. So Pal sat right next to Jamina and said do you feel better after coming here?

Jamina: Dont know, Pal I need answers and my answers are not going to come by changing places they will come when I will think.

Pal: Look in my eyes and then tell me do you trust me?

Jamina: Yes Pal i trust you alot and I trust you more than anyone apart from my parents.

Pal (delighted holds Jamina’s hand): Okkkie lets solve your problem then, now what I am going to tell you might sound strange to you but if you listen patiently and answer my question you will get the answer to all your questions and trust me I promise I mean every single word of it to solve your problem.

(with a small pause, after getting a nod from Jamina) Jamina I know you are confused and I don’t like to see you sad, infact I don’t like you confused or carrying any worry, I just want that you stay happy and by saying this I don’t want to make you sad but yes before even Sam met you I knew you and I feel for you since then, I just love you and would continue to love you till infinity. (small pause, expression on Jamina’s face was not tense any more she was surprised her eyes went wider, Pal got the answer, and then a big loud smile from pal)

Pal was laughing like mad at this point ( JAmina getting annoyed and even more confused why after saying such big thing is he laughing), Pal then continued, Jamina like the way I said to you just now anyone could say to you, anyone could come and propose you. You are a sweet gal and you are too innocent. Look as far as you could see from here what do you see?

Jamina: sky and horizon

Pal: Is it beautiful ?

Jamina: Its really beautiful and I love it.

Pal: Would you like to go there?

Jamina: Yes off course but I know I would never reach there.

Pal: I simply asked would you like to reach for horizon? I never said to use your brain in my question just ask your heart and answer it!

Jamina: Yes I want to go there.

Pal: Then how long you think you are going to take to reach there?

Jamina: Many days may be many years, it would take long to walk that far.

Pal: Good so if you would take days and years then you would see night also, right

Jamina: Right but what are you doing, why asking this thing, you just proposed me and now you asking me such questions, whats wrong with you pal?

Pal: (after another big laughter) Jamina, let me ask you few more questions and then I will answer all the question that you asked just now.

Jamina: Right I would see night also.

Pal: would you be scared by night and stop walking towards the beautiful horizon?

Jamina: yes I would be scared but would not stop towards walking.

Pal: Good, that is all I wanted to hear from you, that horizon is your future, you would always walk through the life towards your future and never reach there, days and night are good and bad time respectively. You would be scared in bad time and happy in day time, now one last question. Close your eyes now and then answer (Jamina closes her eye) Now you are at horizon, is it beautifu? (yes was Jamina’s reply) Who do you see there at horizon with you?

Jamina: you.

Pal: ( with wicked smile) not me stupid, think of people who really love you, about whom you were confused for, Who is there with you?

Jamina: No one…

Pal: Look Jamina, the only thing I want to make you understand is, its your future, you are walking towards your future which is very beautiful and bright, days and nights will come but you wont stop walking, you will get your bright future. So keep walking let people come and walk with you, don’t think about them, let them think about you, your true love is the one who keeps walking with you all the way and stands with you to horizon, not the one who asks you to hold his hand and takes you to horizon by his way. I might sound selfish Jamina, people come and go, its you who have to keep walking and love is not about imposing condition on others or accepting others condition, its about living the life in the most beautiful way without giving up on anything in life. Its about reaching far beyond the horizon, with love you just gain pace, not loose pace, right now you are loosing pace,people will come and go they will hold your hand and may leave you in dark. You are smart gal and you have a long way to go. Let the days and night pass away, stop thinking, start walking, reach for horizon its waiting for you and so is your love. I hope you got your answer.

Jamina: (with tears in her eyes hugs Pal) Thanks Pal I am glad I have you, I am really lucky to have you.

Pal: (with a smile) Anytime Jamina

Today Jamina works in Yahoo at California, she is happily wedded to Shabir (not Jamina’s bf), she came from California to India to attend last rituals of Pal,
That is what I call true friends, kudos to friendship

She just kept hand on Pal’s dead body and whispered “ I am still walking and would like to see you at horizon, you were right you went too fast to horizon…..!!”

In one city the terrorist could warn of a possible attack on airport while in other if terrorist think of any such attack they would be in big trouble. Now if I am not making a comparison, then why the hell I am telling you all this? Ok this comparison is for my heart Favorite character and the one which you wanted back. Although this one is not something which is new or the latest happening to pal but happens to be when he was in his college life. This blog wont be one where the story ends, this one is for you all to end and for you all to tell what should pal do and what is he? Ok in short its for you answer few questions that I will ask in the end of the story. So here we go with the story.

Its a warm afternoon and hot and humid day the worst that could happen now is a powercut. Whenever Pal thinks that the worst could be this, it happens automatically. Now a powercut and hot day what should pal do? So he decides to go to cyber cafe in city where he could enjoy time and chat around. Suddenly the mobile pops up, with a msg and its her what should i say? Love/friend/ crush?? Decide once you hear the story, its Jamina. Jamina in same state of mind of what to do, msgs pal what are you doing? Pal knew it was going to be about going out either for movie or lunch. So Pal suggested lets go for movie and then have an early dinner in the evening. I wont take you through the same story that Jamina has a bf and talks a lot with Pal and pal strongly feels for her and has never spoke to her about his feeling but he is the one who has always kept jamina happy and has always being able to bring smile on Jamina’s face. This time the story goes the other way, this time its different. All of you know Pal and how he is need not to tell more about Pal, so they go for movie and now sitting on dinner table. They were discussing the movie and Pal making Jamina eat a lot Jamina says you are going to make me fat.
Pal ( thinking yes I do intent to do that, so that your bf leaves you !! with a vicked smile ) No way why should I?

Jamina : I know why you do this?
Pal (suspicious): Why?
Jamina: Its said the way to heart goes through the stomach and thats why you are doing this!! I know you devil!!!
Pal (shy and mixed emotion thinking how come she knows this that I feel for her): hmmm
Jamina: I know you want this friendship not to be broken ever and that is why you want to make this bond very strong. I know you clever guy.
Pal (partially relieved): I just wish , I just wish (thinking she knew the reality)
Jamina: You know what pal I am in a big confusion and I don’t know should I tell this to you or not. I don’t know after this what will you think about me? But all I need is that you remain the same to me no matter what happens after this. So please be patient and listen to me carefully.
Pal partially hopeful and partially nervous and expecting something big to happen.

Jamina starts with a nervous face and a bit shy, look pal the thing is its about love and I know what you think about love, I know you think its quiet sacred and you thinks its much more than friendship and all other relations. But to be honest if I don’t tell you this I would be uncomfortable. Pal happy from inside and showing great concern from outside hoping that this time god has listened to him and he would get to hear something magical today.

Jamina continues : I am in great confusion, I told you about my bf he behaves in such a strange way and he is quiet rude to me now a days and has changed for no reasons although I always try to please him and see him happy but I don’t know what is wrong with him, he is never happy and I am very much upset with him.

Pal knew that the opportunity is knocking on his door and he is ready to take this with both hands.

Jamina: But I wana tell you about Sam whom you know very well he came to me and said he feels strongly for me and he knows that I have a bf but he said its just feelings and he needs to express it, I don’t want you to give your verdict I just want to tell you what I feel, No matter what happens my feeling for you is going to be strong and I would not expect any reply for you, I just want to express myself and I did it.

Pal was red with anger if Jamina would not have been there he would have bought a gun and shot his best friend Sam. Trust me gals, guys can do it. History is a proof of it, ladies have caused wars between best pals ..forget friends even nations. So now with this confession it was time for pal to give a reaction… Guess what happened next?

The whole restaurant was looking at Pal not because of anger, not because of jealous, not because of his red face but because of his great laughter quiet lound and like a lion’s roar. Probably that is the most weird reaction a guy could give, Sam knew that his best friend Pal feels strongly for jamina and still he proposed her. Trust me when it comes to love friends don’t remain friends they just change and they just become opportunists, Anyone who disagrees with this fact can meet the author anytime he wants and have a debate on this. The fact is women have been spoiled by choices in India and the guys stay in queue to grape a chance. Pal has to handle himself and behave in the most normal fashion he could. So what he does is sheds some tears while laughing and act as if he is dying of laughter.

Pal: Jamina, where is your happiness? What do you think about life and do you think a person comes and says something to you and you accept it?

Jamina: actually the story has a twist, I did not thought that it would turn out this way but me and sam had been talking right from the time you the day you introduced him to me. He is a kind of nice guy, he is shy and he is very calm and composed, he never says much to me and its me who contacts her everytime, he is too shy to talk to me.
(Pal knew why Sam was shy and why he never made an effort to contact Jamina)

Pal: Look here Jamina you are the best judge of your life and no one else apart from you can decide who is what in your life, why leaving your bf for Sam?

Jamina: I am not leaving my bf, I love him alot I wana see him happy all the time but he is a kind of guy who is behaving strange all the time and he is the one who seeks his happiness more then mine all the time but this guy Sam whom you know very well always tries to keep me happy and never expects anything from me while my bf expects alot from me so I am confused and confused to my extent.

Trust me guys, gals get confused in the simplest way. There are only few things they can fall in quickly for are : shopping, spending money last but not the least confusion. Pal was terribly angry but like always he is supposed to stay calm and not show any emotions pretty much in control of situation he knows this situation very well.

Pal: (still laughing at his fate and getting annoyed at his friend) Jamina all I would say is you know the answer and you know whom you like the most you know who can keep you happy the most so be with the person who can do this every single time.

At this point Pal thought of saying his feeling also but was in dilemma of adding to confusion of Jamina. So my question to all the readers are

a) Who is the best friend in the story and of whom (compare all the 3 friends and please let me know this is why I started with comparison)?
b) Who should Jamina go with?
c) Should Pal add to Jamina’s misery by confessing his emotion?
d) Whom should Jamina be with?
e) (To all guys) Do you agree with fact that gals remain confused most of the time?

I would expect people to reply through comments, because this story is incomplete and I want all you creative writers to complete in the most creative way you can. I will tell you what happened next in my next blog. Till then I enjoy London and Starbucks
To end here is a word of wisdom for commotion:
“Beneath our hearts lies several emotions some of them petrified and frozen some of them just another commotion”

To all my readers I repeat, all the character’s in this blog are ficticious and any resemblance would only be a coincidence. Also the writer of this blog wants to create a humour out of situation and by no intention wants to target any community or gender by any means.

So just another great day, love and ane for me are great couple but as a guy love sometimes gets annoyed with situation, trust me all guys do…gals please note. But not today, Love was in a great romantic mood and wanted to see her gal happy, but all guys must know that happiness of gals lies in shopping (Courtesy: Pyar ka panchnama) So love calls ane to know where is she, and he gets a reply he is in the coffee house in city centre waiting for love. Love runs all the way to coffee house and meets ane.

Ane: Where the hell were you? I am waiting for you from last half an hour? Its 10:30 now!!
Love: But I just called you ten mins back!! How will i know where were you?
Ane: You forgot again…my god what should i do??
Love: What??
Ane: Its our anniversary!!
Love: But if i remember correctly I proposed you on 14th feb.
Ane: God damn it… its nine months that we have celebrated successfully. How can you forget this we celebrate it every month. Love you keep forgetting things, makes me sad…!
Love: No dear look I wana see you happy, let me get something for you!! (Thinking something in coffee)
Ane: Great, thats a great idea I yesterday saw a great jacket lets see it. I love you so much you know what i want
Love: (half confused in a state of shock) …aaaa…aa …yaa.. lets go..
So now they began their shopping, I could tell you a lot about shopping but lets keep it short,
11:00 shopping begin
11:30 the guy knew what the gal is looking for and he said to ane, look ane i can tell you what you are looking for, ane still didn’t knew what she was looking for but still she asked what am I looking for?
Love: you are looking for a brown jacket which could match with your shoes, should have stitches at the border, should not have horizontal pockets, the zips should be covered, should be light, should not be too bulky, should be slim fit, should be water resistant, should not destroy your figure, should have a hood, should be within X price.

Ane: How do you know so much??
Love: I am watching your choices, and could make out simply.
12:00- 3 shops seen with 20 jackets tried
2:00- 10 shops seen with 60 jackets tried. By this point love was hungry and was tiered, he wanted to have something, but could not speak.
3:00- 14th shop with countless jackets tried, Anne after deciding on 2 jackets looked at love and asked a question “ I hope you are not getting bored! “
(trust me guys, this is the most annoying question a gal can ask while shopping)
Love: No dear not at all, go on make your choice.
Ane: I am confused between this jacket and the one which we saw at shop “P” (this happens to be the first shop they visited, Love partially hungry and partially happy that she finally made a choice) What should I do?

Love: Take both dear ..its your choice and your choice is never bad.
Ane: No I just need to take one… give me a decision.
Love: take this, but after you are done you have to come along with me to shop “P” to get me a lower, I liked it alot.
Ane: (happily) Ok thats great
Ane, took the jacket and went to shop “P”, by the time Ane could blink her eyes and search love in shop “P” he came back with a bag.
Ane opened the bag and was shocked to see the other jacket of her choice, she was looking at Love telling her that you spend too much on useless things and this is not a good habit. Love quietly listen to Ane and gave a gentle smile. Ane stopped love and gave him a warm hug. Said “thank you” in his ears. Love just closed his eyes and felt his heart which was running faster than Bolt, After the hug love looked at Ane and said, “Anytime” with a gentle smile.
Once they were out of shop, they met people of “Hare Krishna Hare Ram”, who were on street to collect donation for latest event. They caught love and said, dude for the long life of your relation and may you both marry soon.
Love: Look brother, neither we are going to marry nor our relation would be long, so please let us go. I don’t wana be in all this.

After walking away from that person Ane was annoyed and was disturbed by what Love said and love knew it. By the time they reached home ane just kept her bag and left silently.
Love held her hand and kneel down and said,
“ Ane, you will never know how much I love you, my love could never be measured by donation I give to them, nor the amount I spend on you, my love is silent and you know I know how much it is, if you have any doubts just keep your hand on my heart and feel it. I know I spend too much but that is just for you, my spending has nothing to do with my habit. My only bad habit is that I love you and love you like mad. I know your answer, you gave it to me 9 months back. So now please don’t shed tears, because they are valuable for me, all I want is to see you smiling, see you getting mad at me. My madness and my craziness is just for you and you would never come to know its extent. I know we are together, but I don’t know what will happen tomorrow, still I want to tell you one thing, no distance can separate my love for you and no matter what happens I would always like to see you smiling just like the way you did in the morning. For me nothing is more valuable than your smile, and you might ask what happened to me today? Why I am behaving so? The answer to that is Your love has filled my heart and now its pouring out, and those feelings cant be expressed in words but this the best I can do to describe them…

Let your smile be alive,
Like a touch of divine
Like a dew on a grass
Like the glow in your eyes
Shining just like brightest stars
Through my eyes into my heart
Making me nervous and tearing me apart
Through my mind into my senses
Touching me like I have no senses
A rain drop on the face
Making me look for my own trace….

We met in the most funny ways in a busy lunch area it was a conference and I could not find any place to sit so I sat right in front of the person “I”. We were chatting in about the conference and proceedings although he was born in Spain but he lived all his life in India. He was an interesting person to talk to and we decided to be together in conference and lets discuss more about each other. “I” was a strange character he was funny, quiet sophisticated yet simple. He was like puzzle to me.

For me I had a fight with my boss a day before and was in no mood to enjoy conference. So after the conference I started the conversation with “I” about bosses and how bad they are!! He said to me “dude whats your problem?”

I said “ I am not happy with myself and its not me in this job, its not what keeps me happy and its not what takes me to the top”.

“I” said “ So what is it that keeps you going??”

Me: I want to be an artist, I want to be a free bird, I don’t want to go to office , I want to earn on my onw!!

“I” : And what do you plan to do for this?? What is the reason for being an artist??

Me: It just makes me feel happy makes me feel comfortable and makes me look at life in a different way. I enjoy life more when I do what I like.

“I” : So you mean to say you never enjoyed your work?

Me: No I do sometimes but the boss keeps cursing me and the people around me never support me, I have done good things but I never got what I deserved!

“I” : Listen dude then you love your work its just that you lost the motivation to work, you are innovative and you know whats your inspiration…!!

Me: Dude you hardly know about me and you talk so big?

“I” : If you think I am wrong, you can leave the table right now and I am very sure you wont…

( I was truely amazed by this guys confidence there was something which was keeping me bounded to this guy, his words were magical and he was someone who has faced this situation earlier)

Me: Okiie go on!!

“I” : Listen dude, life is never easy and it is never meant to be , whats the use if life is easy? If you don’t struggle if you don’t fight what do you think every thing should come to you? Okie let me tell you what you think about yourself.
(I was dumbstruck that this person whom I meant on lunch table is going to tell me what I do wrong  is he kidding me or he thinks he is god?? But any ways I wanted to prove him wrong so I accepted the offer with a gentle nod)

For a human what matters most is I and for me its not the word that matters most, for me what matters is myself.
The most common mistake that people do is think that what is it that I have done wrong and what keeps me away from success?? Why cant I make myself on top of others??

What people fail to realise that the approach is quiet intrinsic and should be looked from the outside not inside, Now look at the same thought process in a different way what is it that I am doing wrong? What is it that keeps me away from success and what can I change in myself to make me go on top.

When you go on top people always pull you down and they will never support you. Life is never easy, the race of life is full of dirt and thorns, its just that you need to keep running and push your limits. If you start thinking about people who pull you down you are wasting your resource and time.

Being a half Christian I was told its your destiny and if you are meant to achieve something you will get it, no one can take it away from you. Life is all about putting efforts. Now if someone pulls you down that means you are on top of him, you are one step ahead of what he is!, that pull should not lead you down but should make you think to try even harder not to get pulled down. What is it that you are doing that you are above him? What is it that he cant do that you are doing??

So Still its about myself, but we humans are so obsessed by success that we don’t realise that failure are means to succeed they are the lesson which our life wants to give us to succeed. We miss out the hidden message that life is sending us. So change the way you look and you will see a big difference in I, me and myself.

I know I gave enough of funda to you but I end up here so please spell life for me.

Me: L I F E

“I” : remember the F word, thats the fun in your life and life wants to give you much more but without “f” it is just “LIE” … In short life without fun is “LIE” So never give up stand one more time and run for yourself and you will succeed, because the quality of winner is to win at all cost!!

कभी खट्टी तौ कभी नमकीन होती है

इंसान यादो के साए में ही तौ रहता है

कभी यादो पर हस्त है तौ कभी रोता है

स्कूल में आये तौ बत्च्पान की यादें

कॉलेज पहुचे तौ स्कूल की यादें

काम करने लगे तौ कॉलेज की यादें …

यह यादो का जंगले कितना घना होता है ……

कभी बोलता है तौ कभी खामोश होता है

दिल को चीर कर भावनाओ को खोल देता है

दूर हो कर भी दिल के तार जोड़ देता है..

हिचकी आये तौ याद करा है कितनी आसानी से बोल देता है…

इंसान आज में कल को धुन्ड़ता है और कल में आज को

इन यादो का हिसाब भी कितना अजीब होता है…

एक आशिक को अपनी महबूबा की याद आती है….

तौ एक सिपाही को अपने घर का आँगन याद आता है

यह यादें एक माँ को अपने बेटे से सपनो में जोड़ जाती है..

कभी जो बोली थी वो बात याद आती है

तौ कभी जो लड़ी थी उसकी शुरुआत याद आती है

कभी जो बीत गए उन लम्हों की याद आती है

तौ कभी जो खो गया है उसकी याद सताती है

तौ खामोश कवी की आँखों में चुप चाप आंसू लाती है

इन् यादो के साए में ही तौ इंसान रहता है..

यह यादें दिल के कितने पास होती है ….

दिल कुछ भी कहे पर यह यादें बाड़ी ख़ास होती है

ठहरे पानी की तरह एक दम साफ़ होती है

अम्बर में बिखरे बादल की तरह कुछ दूर कुछ पास होती है

अपने हे साए की तरह हमारे साथ होती है

एक आस हो कर भी एक ख़ास एहसास होती है…

हासे थे जिन बातो पर उनका लिबास होती है

कभी न ख़तम होने वाला इन्तेजार होती है

यह यादें चाहे जैसी भी हो पर दिल के बहुत पास होती है

ना होते हुए भी हमारे साथ होती है!!!

यह यादें कुछ ख़ास होती है ……….!!